An Effect of Touch (Assignment)

3-17-15
i have never liked to be touched. My mother only hugged her boyfriends and my father was absent for 10 years.

Because i Must (Assignment)

2-19-15
i had an assignment from my Dom to cum 5 times by the following day, i didn’t know what time on the following day (and i was afraid to ask… so afraid that i didn’t ask.). i didn’t like this assignment. There was no way i could do it and i was going to fail. *sigh* Well, maybe… i figured i needed help. i’d rather be told to run outside naked than to have orgasms. (i wouldn’t do it… that’s illegal, but just so you get the picture. Well, i’d also rather take a punishment than this, but doesn’t mean to not do it.) I want my Dom happy with me, so i tried…

Reconciliation – Day 123

November 30th, 2013 – Saturday
I always seem to be conscious early, even before I know I am and remain that way for 20 minutes several times a night.

Reconciliation- Day 122

November 29th, 2013
I’ve been feeling like I was slowly losing my sanity. I’ve been distracting myself by playing computer games and isolating.

Reconciliation- Day 81

October 20th, 2013
It’s getting boring, because what my life has become is routine. Today, though, was my husband’s birthday and I didn’t have a gift.

Reconciliation – Day 75

October 14th, 2013
This is the first official day of accepting that everyone at my husband’s place of employment has been fired and the place is essentially out of business.

Reconciliation – Day 74

October 13th, 2013
While I was away at my gaming pal’s place yesterday my husband bought a lot of beer.

Reconciliation – Day 73

October 12th, 2013
My husband insisted on using the computer about 10am. I took 3 of the kids to meet our new friend from World of Warcraft that my son met at the bus stop.

Reconciliation – Day 72

October 11th, 2013
I had an appointment with my therapist today. It didn’t happen, I was very unhappy about having to cancel it. I even had hot water for a bath this time instead of using a bucket of boiled water.

Reconciliation – Day 71

October 10th, 2013
I played World of Warcraft. Since my Shaman is max level I’ve started leveling my warrior again, this time with several heirlooms. My husband had gone to his work program and the children to school.