i have never liked to be touched. My mother only hugged her boyfriends and my father was absent for 10 years.
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i had an assignment from my Dom to cum 5 times by the following day, i didn’t know what time on the following day (and i was afraid to ask… so afraid that i didn’t ask.). i didn’t like this assignment. There was no way i could do it and i was going to fail. *sigh* Well, maybe… i figured i needed help. i’d rather be told to run outside naked than to have orgasms. (i wouldn’t do it… that’s illegal, but just so you get the picture. Well, i’d also rather take a punishment than this, but doesn’t mean to not do it.) I want my Dom happy with me, so i tried… Continue reading “Because i Must (Assignment)”
November 30th, 2013 – Saturday
I always seem to be conscious early, even before I know I am and remain that way for 20 minutes several times a night.
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November 29th, 2013
I’ve been feeling like I was slowly losing my sanity. I’ve been distracting myself by playing computer games and isolating.
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October 7th, 2013
Normal day. There was nothing interesting… Except… Ok I’ll tell you what happened. I was minding my own business playing World of Warcraft and I got a phone call. It was “restricted” so I ignored it.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 68 (Mysterious Texter)”
September 21st, 2013
Today started off a good day. I could have written this yesterday, because I usually write about anything in the post of the previous day if it occurs before I get up for the day. This time I planned not to go back to sleep, I was up around 2am, not because I planned to be awake, I just wake up sometimes. I lay there trying to fall asleep again without even realizing that I was awake.
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September 1st, 2013
I’ve felt grateful today for my spanking yesterday morning. I’ve been feeling great and happy to be rid of all that negative energy. My mind stupidly keeps thinking about being proactive and getting another spanking before my mood starts to decline again. It hasn’t started yet. I’ve probably got a couple more days of good behavior left in me unless I have a bad day or someone within my small inner circle behaves poorly toward me.
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August 31st, 2013
I was conscious early, despite trying to stay asleep. He knows when I’m awake somehow. It was probably around 6am. He told me to turn over so he could spank me. It sounded like a request, so it was optional. I considered it for a minute. I suppose that I didn’t feel like it. It took another minute before I did and I didn’t say a word. I thought maybe he forgot, sometimes forgetting is good. After about a minute I was comfortable laying on my stomach and then I saw him reach and grab that horrible wooden paddle. I didn’t want that one. He hadn’t even struck me and I winced.
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August 24th, 2013
Saturday. I made an effort to not get up early. I was able to stall waking up by about an hour. 7:30ish am still might be early, but I can’t do much better. If I ever sleep past 9am, someone should check my pulse. Lol.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 24 (Feeling Grounded)”
Amazing. Incredible. Burning. Indescribable. I think that about wraps it up. I posted a blog and woke my husband at 7:15. I asked him if he wanted to have sex with me. We’d had sex about 3 hours prior, but it wasn’t enough and I was patient.
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