Indescribable. i have no idea what i feel or what i should feel. i feel good, i feel motivated, i feel confident, and about 10 other things i have yet to identify. (Maybe safe, warm, loved, vibrant, content… at least 5 more to figure out). Continue reading “The Intervention (Also on Ep)”
It was Friday, the day started off boring, I was lonely and waiting for my Master. I was on day 2 of not hearing from him. I revel in the sunshine that he is, he gave a shadow of comfort and support, but suns rise and set, and in an instant he was gone.
Continue reading “New Dom and Moving On”
November 29th, 2013
I’ve been feeling like I was slowly losing my sanity. I’ve been distracting myself by playing computer games and isolating.
Continue reading “Reconciliation- Day 122”
Sat. September 28th, 2013
Apparently, my husband thought I earned a spanking. It’s always too early to think about reasons.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 59 (Spanked)”
September 6th, 2013
My sister texted me a little after 3:30 am. I heard it, but didn’t look at my phone. My eyes were shut. LOL. (Anyway, the only person that texts me in the middle of the night is my ex boyfriend. He wants me to do a threesome with his wife, which I find odd.)
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 37 (Immediate Consequences)”
September 3rd, 2013
This morning I got the kids up and made sure they got ready for school. Then I started playing World of Warcraft at about 5:40am before it was to go on Tuesday server maintenance. My husband sent our oldest to get me to turn the computer off and go to him. I said “no”.She said “is that what you want me to tell him?” I felt a chill at those words. (No, don’t tell him that.) I said, “I’m playing until 7”.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 34 (Disappointed)”
September 2, 2013
No job class or school today.
My husband asked for breakfast but we were out of bacon. When my oldest daughter took out the taco meat from the other day I made myself a couple tacos. I cut some lettuce and put onions into one so that I could surprise my husband with it. I took it to him and he said to save it for later.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 33 (Defiant)”
August 31st, 2013
I was conscious early, despite trying to stay asleep. He knows when I’m awake somehow. It was probably around 6am. He told me to turn over so he could spank me. It sounded like a request, so it was optional. I considered it for a minute. I suppose that I didn’t feel like it. It took another minute before I did and I didn’t say a word. I thought maybe he forgot, sometimes forgetting is good. After about a minute I was comfortable laying on my stomach and then I saw him reach and grab that horrible wooden paddle. I didn’t want that one. He hadn’t even struck me and I winced.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 31 (Enduring Multiple)”
August 22, 2013
I woke up early around 6am with that same pain in my rear end. It hadn’t gotten any better at all. Well, I did some writing from what I remembered of yesterday. I Woke my husband at 7:07am. My poor fashion challenged husband showed me a pair of green slacks and a blue shirt asking if they looked good together. Ohhh no!
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 22 (Guilt)”
At around 5am yesterday I was minding my own business and doing online things when my master messaged me. I was excited and sort of wary at the same time.
Continue reading “Double Discipline”