Is it wrong to say that my friend’s world is my world? Or maybe at some point we created a new world and moved onto that one. Or maybe our worlds are so close together that anything hitting her world also affects mine. i don’t know how to put it, but i do know that we faced destruction, i call it the apocalypse.
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i stayed up all night last night to finish a blog entry. i felt like i needed to finish the entry. The progress on it was going so slow that i feared i would never finish it. i’m writing this because i’m waiting for the punishment, because none of my friends are online. i’m writing this because i’d like to calm down. i think to myself “Breathe!” It isn’t working. It’s not like i’m doing CPR on myself. i hope i don’t need CPR because i don’t know how to perform it. i can try mimicking what i’ve seen on tv, though. you tilt someone’s head back and stick your finger in the back of their throat for some reason. Or maybe you see if they have a pulse first. Oh. i need to know if the person is breathing. At some point i check for a heartbeat. If there’s no breathing or heartbeat, the person is dead and i walk away, does it matter if they still have a pulse? Oh nevermind. The point is that i don’t yet need CPR.
Continue reading “i Confessed i had a Late Night”
It was 3am, but i woke up needing to write. i hope that my Master will forgive me for being up too early. i could be in trouble, but i have OCD and i assume it’s harder for me than the average person (but I really don’t know). Continue reading “Maybe Obsessive Compulsive (Report)”
i procrastinate. i don’t like that i do this, i seriously need help.
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August 31st, 2013
I was conscious early, despite trying to stay asleep. He knows when I’m awake somehow. It was probably around 6am. He told me to turn over so he could spank me. It sounded like a request, so it was optional. I considered it for a minute. I suppose that I didn’t feel like it. It took another minute before I did and I didn’t say a word. I thought maybe he forgot, sometimes forgetting is good. After about a minute I was comfortable laying on my stomach and then I saw him reach and grab that horrible wooden paddle. I didn’t want that one. He hadn’t even struck me and I winced.
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August 26th, 2013
First Day of school. My alarm on my phone was set for 4:40am and then it had the nerve to actually sound. I hit the home key 3 times once every 10 minutes. It stopped bugging me at 5:10. I got up at 5:20. I woke all the kids and they took turns showering, it took forever, which is probably why I set my alarm for 4:40 (for the first day of school’s chaos).
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