This is not difficult, this is painful. This is not painful, this is difficult. And yet it is neither. i need to apologize to all my friends for causing them to worry. A situation that isn’t dangerous to a normal person might be dangerous for me. i’m not too safe when out alone, but i don’t always realize it. Continue reading “i Didn’t Realize… i’m Sorry”
(Yes, it’s that bad) Yesterday morning…5:56am, that’s when the worst of it started. i had woken up around 5:30 and that was a half hour late which meant that i was a half hour late at waking the slowest kid in the house. At 5:56 a former Dom had begun messaging me on Facebook.
Continue reading “Forgive Me, Dom, For i Have Sinned (Part 1)”
Indescribable. i have no idea what i feel or what i should feel. i feel good, i feel motivated, i feel confident, and about 10 other things i have yet to identify. (Maybe safe, warm, loved, vibrant, content… at least 5 more to figure out). Continue reading “The Intervention (Also on Ep)”
It was Friday, the day started off boring, I was lonely and waiting for my Master. I was on day 2 of not hearing from him. I revel in the sunshine that he is, he gave a shadow of comfort and support, but suns rise and set, and in an instant he was gone.
Continue reading “New Dom and Moving On”
September 23rd, 2013
We had an appointment to see a rental house today around 3pm. My husband called around 11:30 and told me to cancel because he had to meet someone at the agency. He told me not to forget, but I didn’t want to cancel. I was looking forward to seeing the place.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 54 (Instructions)”
It was such a bad morning. My husband was up around 7am. I woke shortly after and that whole time he said nothing to me. Except for asking if I knew where scissors were, I didn’t. He asked when my therapy appointment was, 11am. He kissed me and headed out as he said he’d be back at 10:55. I said “I don’t know if I can wait that long”
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 20 (Requesting Discipline)”
August 19th, 2013
At 5:59 am I was up, threw something on, and left the bedroom due to the fan making me too cold. I sat in the living room finishing yesterday’s blog. The 2 children I was previously concerned about never showed up. My husband was up around 7am and called me. I thought as I went to him, “why? Are you going to spank me?” I thought it was pretty unlikely.
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 19 (Passive)”