i Didn’t Realize… i’m Sorry

3-5-15
This is not difficult, this is painful. This is not painful, this is difficult. And yet it is neither. i need to apologize to all my friends for causing them to worry. A situation that isn’t dangerous to a normal person might be dangerous for me. i’m not too safe when out alone, but i don’t always realize it. Continue reading “i Didn’t Realize… i’m Sorry”

i Didn’t Realize… i’m Sorry

Forgive Me, Dom, For i Have Sinned (Part 1)

3-3-15
(Yes, it’s that bad) Yesterday morning…5:56am, that’s when the worst of it started. i had woken up around 5:30 and that was a half hour late which meant that i was a half hour late at waking the slowest kid in the house. At 5:56 a former Dom had begun messaging me on Facebook.
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Forgive Me, Dom, For i Have Sinned (Part 1)

The Intervention (Also on Ep)

2-28-15
Indescribable. i have no idea what i feel or what i should feel. i feel good, i feel motivated, i feel confident, and about 10 other things i have yet to identify. (Maybe safe, warm, loved, vibrant, content… at least 5 more to figure out). Continue reading “The Intervention (Also on Ep)”

The Intervention (Also on Ep)

Reconciliation – Day 54 (Instructions)

September 23rd, 2013
We had an appointment to see a rental house today around 3pm. My husband called around 11:30 and told me to cancel because he had to meet someone at the agency. He told me not to forget, but I didn’t want to cancel. I was looking forward to seeing the place.

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Reconciliation – Day 54 (Instructions)

Reconciliation – Day 20 (Requesting Discipline)

It was such a bad morning. My husband was up around 7am. I woke shortly after and that whole time he said nothing to me. Except for asking if I knew where scissors were, I didn’t. He asked when my therapy appointment was, 11am. He kissed me and headed out as he said he’d be back at 10:55. I said “I don’t know if I can wait that long”

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Reconciliation – Day 20 (Requesting Discipline)

Reconciliation – Day 19 (Passive)

August 19th, 2013
At 5:59 am I was up, threw something on, and left the bedroom due to  the fan making me too cold. I sat in the living room finishing yesterday’s blog. The 2 children I was previously concerned about never showed up. My husband was up around 7am and called me. I thought as I went to him, “why? Are you going to spank me?” I thought it was pretty unlikely.

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Reconciliation – Day 19 (Passive)