Road (Rollercoaster) to Submission

3-25-15
My road from complete independence to submission.. imagine coasting down a smooth hill on your bike feeling the breeze on a hot day. (Doesn’t that sound nice? Well.. wake up!). i can’t speak about anyone else’s road but mine. i should call it a rollercoaster rather than a road, it twists, it turns to get around obstacles, loops backwards extremely fast and yet moves forward so slow that it needs those loops to build any speed to get anywhere. But maybe you don’t know what i’m talking about.
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Road (Rollercoaster) to Submission

My Obedience and Submission (Assignment)

3-15-15
i have problems with authority, i always have. i’ve said this before. i didn’t follow any rules and i didn’t obey anyone, i didn’t care who it was. Yet i was pleasant and agreeable as i secretly did as i pleased. i was considered a teacher’s pet even though i didn’t ever suck up. i showed respect as long as i was left alone to do whatever i liked.
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My Obedience and Submission (Assignment)

Reconciliation – Day 14 (Contract Talk)

August 14th, 2013
I could have passed out today. I woke at 4:56 am. I was checking the time and saw a message from a friend. I wanted to respond, but my husband told me to put my phone down. I went back to sleep and woke up at 7:32.

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Reconciliation – Day 14 (Contract Talk)

Lesson Learned

I admit it, I was out of control from Saturday night until sometime on Monday. My husband had just thoroughly disappointed me on Saturday night deep into my core by saying that he wouldn’t spend the first day of his return with me. I was spiralling on a downward course to… well.. where I ended up. I broke nearly every rule I had been given.
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Lesson Learned