September 6th, 2013
My sister texted me a little after 3:30 am. I heard it, but didn’t look at my phone. My eyes were shut. LOL. (Anyway, the only person that texts me in the middle of the night is my ex boyfriend. He wants me to do a threesome with his wife, which I find odd.)
Continue reading “Reconciliation – Day 37 (Immediate Consequences)”
You know what’s scary? My husband is the only one I let get close to me. Now I’m tired of feeling vulnerable and I want to run so I can shut down my emotion and be alone for the rest of my life. He isn’t letting me run. He’s right there holding my hand.
Continue reading “Shaking with Fear”
I really didn’t think I’d be writing today. Today I don’t trust that I remember clearly, I was more noodle brained than usual today (Perhaps due to missing dinner and having only 1 meal and 2 snacks yesterday) . I will do my best.
Continue reading “Is He Serious?.. Apparently Yes”
I admit it, I was out of control from Saturday night until sometime on Monday. My husband had just thoroughly disappointed me on Saturday night deep into my core by saying that he wouldn’t spend the first day of his return with me. I was spiralling on a downward course to… well.. where I ended up. I broke nearly every rule I had been given.
Continue reading “Lesson Learned”
It really is getting difficult to determine which is the most unbearable spanking I’ve ever had. I’ve never felt so out of control as I have over that Sunday and Monday. It had started Saturday night. I was spanked Monday morning and I know that I deserved it. I felt rejected by my husband and stopped caring. I had a very bad attitude, I didn’t discourage a sexual Conversation online, and I didn’t eat properly. It should be considered The worst one yet and I think it still is, but there was an embarrassing occurrence or two.
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